Throw certainty to the wind

There is no place where those striving after consciousness could find absolute safety. Doubt and insecurity are indispensable components of a complete life. Only those who can lose this life really can gain it.

A complete life does not consist in a theoretical completeness, but in the fact that one accepts, without reservation, the particular fatal issue in which one finds oneself embedded, and that one tries to make sense of it or to create a cosmos from the chaotic mess into which one is born.

If one lives properly and completely, time and again one will be confronted with a situation of which one will say,

‘This is too much. I cannot bear it any more.’

Then the question must be answered,

‘Can one really not bear it? ʼ

— C. G. Jung Letters II, p. 171

Would you believe?

There’s so much to be afraid of in this world. Overwhelming darkness and suspect figures in the shadows hissing at passersby. An ice-cold world where anyone with warmth in their blood and light upon their faces is quickly undone.

If you look to the outside for validation, all you’ll be left with is insecurities. If you scan your environment for signs of safety, all you’ll get is fear and anxiety. And if you look to this world for reassurance, all you’ll get in return is a crippling doubt in yourself.

This world is merely a reflection of your inner realm. What you find before you is what is within you. What you change within, will manifest without. Embody the reality you’d like to see in this world. By enriching others, you enrich yourself. By doubting others, you doubt yourself. All evil and suffering is a lack of understanding and faith. By faith I mean believing in something before it manifests, before it’s tangibly evident. Believing in the good of someone’s intention. Believing that there’s a place for you in this world. Believing that your dream and desires that arise within you like waves crashing against the shore, pulling and pushing, with the ebb and tide of your consciousness, will see the light of day eventually.

Any progress, invention, discovery was once a seed carried in someone’s unwavering faith in it. How many dreams have you killed or let die? Is your heart meant to be a cemetery or a playground? Your focus is a creative force that creates and amplifies what it’s fed on. Your faith channels that force. And in the absence of faith, doubt takes over and all it does it create replicas of itself; an army of doubt and suffering to extinguish the last ray of light in your world.

Tomorrow is a different day

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you kept shouting  their bad advice —
though the whole house began to tremble
and you felt the old tug at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy was terrible.
It was already late enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen branches and stones.
But little by little, as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice which you slowly recognized as your own,
that kept you company as you strode deeper and deeper into the world,
determined to do the only thing you could do —
determined to save the only life you could save.

Mary Oliver


I was inspired to write this after reading Flickering Lights blog  on the issue of doubt and anti-theism. I had been brooding over this for some time, but hers was the straw. Check her blog out by the way, beautiful stuff.


As today’s society has shifted from a religious trajectory to a secular one, it’s caused so much confusion that in pure terror, people find it easier to reject religion altogether than sift through it all. In reality, it’s moving to the other extreme of the spectrum because finding your truth is a lifelong journey and isn’t limited to spirituality. This journey is unsettling because it entails change,uncertainty,doubts and painful emotions. In the face of this, it’s easier to take to anti-theism and say there is no uncertainty. Faith is essentially uncertain; anything abstract can’t be empirically verified and is up for individual study. Whether it be worldview,self-esteem or life philosophy, nothing is set in stone.

When people ask for hard-set proof of a deity, they are looking for the answer without pondering the question. Life is not about answers; imagine if you now were told who’d you will marry, how many kids you will have, what vocation you will end up in and when you’ll die- how dull would it be? It’s the element of uncertainty that life’s essence is contained within. It is when you don’t know for sure that you mull over something and have to make a choice.

The underlying motive of the growing inclination towards anti-theism can be observed in other walks of life; the education system,politics,relationships,jobs, to mention a few.

People flock to dodgy self-help gurus to get the formula for a consistent and ‘happy’ life. One where they won’t have to deal with terrible bouts of gray areas. We’re told that we must take to the traditional educational system in order to attain ‘stability’. Cast dreams and hobbies aside, for those are uncertain and there’s the risk of failure. Google ‘dating advice’ and you’ll find it awash with countless articles and blogs that are in essence imparting on the reader a technique in manipulating the opposite gender into falling for one. Rarely do you see people espousing the outrageous idea to be oneself, for that couldn’t possibly garner the status of being a sex symbol. Being vulnerable is a naive idea that is far too risky to dabble in. Besides, who is the individual divorced from the crowd?

We are stuck in a hamster wheel of society-endorsed drudgery and emotional slavery. We want out; we want to travel around the world,become carpenters and writers,throw our masks in the air and stand in our naked personalities. We want to awake each morn raring to get started and come back each evening with an experience. We don’t want a Monday to Friday schedule to replace our lives. We don’t want to study 3-4 years in university to end up fighting for jobs alongside high school drop-outs who have 4 years of work experience as leverage over us.

We don’t want this, but then again, what do we want? It’s in this question that contains the fear,uncertainty,avant-garde that has us clinging to drudgery,because at least it’s socially acceptable. It’s stable. Everyone does it, and everyone’s miserable together.

No two days are the same, even though they all follow the same dynamics; dawn,noon,evening,night. But what separates today from yesterday isn’t the arbitrary weekdays assigned to them, but it’s the unscripted experiences we encounter within them. Likewise, no two people are the same; don’t let anyone pigeonhole you to a tiny nook where you have to huddle up to be as inconspicuous as possible. Don’t let anyone mock your emotions and don’t let anyone instill their fears in you.

You were born with a soul that has in it everything you need; learn to listen to it, to your heart. Risk the fear and pain because those are the only bridges to bravery and tranquillity. Follow the trails of questions in your mind and don’t expect people to understand you,because they don’t even understand themselves.

Live before you die.

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